I miss you...

I miss you. Even if it is stupid and you don't deserve it. Even I've already cried until I was no tears by your fault. For much that you've hurt me, and much bad you've treated me. Yet all my proud, today I miss you. No, I haven't forgotten you, if you're asking it and yes, I know that if you're reading this words is because lot of time has passed and things are changed. But it doesn't care to me. As the same way doesn't care that you have already forgotten me, and that you don't need stop smiling and turn your head down and walk faster when we met. Me, I miss you. Yes, before six months, that have passed too fast, and in which I don't know what I've done with mi life.
Today, I'm writing for you again, without knowing why, without knowing what I pretend to say, as almost always. Maybe I want to say that I miss the way you used to look at me, that I miss to lose myself into your eyes and all the stupid butterflies that fluttered inside me when you're arms were around me.
Perhaps that though I tried to say otherwise, and to make it happen, and although sometimes I believe have succeeded, I haven't forgotten you. 
That I remember your voice, your words, that I can'y know if it was true, that I don't forget you're smile. That I don't know how I feel, that I don't love you... but right now, I would give everything for you to make me see something that all this you say you feel for me. That, only for a moment, I would like everything to be as before, out of my dreams.

~Triss