Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend...

When your back burns for all the stab wounds wich had been recieved. When it bleeds for the wounds that will never close. When you realized that trust is gone, and you'll never find it again.
When lies are strung with inexplicable situations. When words to the back are more than words to the face. When promises and secrets didn't worth anything. When there's not any collusion. When you cry without knowing a reason. When you fake smiles for inertia.

When you don't know how to act. When anything seems be correct, you know something has changed forever.  And you can't go back. Things happen, problems appear, and friendship die. And it doesn't matter if you like it or not. You can try to avoid it, fight against it or close your eyes for not see that, but you know it will happen.
Someone can tell you it's fate. I don't believe it that kind of fate. Other could blame the time, which make us change. Neither I think it. It makes no sense to blame anyone beyond ourselves. We change and mature with the time, that's truth, but we are who decide what change and what leave in the past. And in this moment, all of us have to chose. And we have to do it. As we have to accept that someone left us in the past, and we don't matter anymore.
Because friendship, for me, means a lot, but eternity it's not its property. And I've learnt by the hard way and a lot of betrayls that, even we fight for it, it ends.
And sometimes we have to accept that it doesn't worth try to save what is lost forever.

#Triss

Smile for smile

If all of us receive only what we give, world would be a more just place- And we would be better people. Anyone want to receive bad things. Anyone like be used, but many people do it. Of course, if they know that someday they will suffer it, maybe they would thing two times before.
And not, I'm not defending eye for eye. In that case, all of us would be blind, me the first. I defend the "smile for smile" that I know I have just invented. I defend optimism as way of life, solidarity as flag and friendship as religion  
But that friendship must be the real one. That friendship that doesn't end the day you haven't got a test, or you understood the lesson the first time. If friendship for you is that, sorry, you don't need a friend, you need a teacher. And for classes, I collect. I don't refer also to that friendship only exists when you're bad, looking for a piece of advice with that person you want, or simply you have one of that days when you only want to cry. In that case, you need a kleenex better than a friend.
I defend the friendship of be there always. Of share laughs, dreams, secrets and tears. Friendship of today for you, tomorrow for me. Of it doesn't matter what you've done, it doesn't matter mistakes, because if it's real, always is forgiven.  
I defend friendship which is built step by step, problem by problem. Which for more hit it receive, stand there forever. Which gives, without be waiting to receive back, but which also receive even when it doesn't deserve anything.
That friendship never dies, never disappears, never is forgotten. Friendship composed of that friends you don't change for anything. Who are loyal to you, happen what happen. Who you know are there, but you must take care, you want to take care, for not lose them. 
I'm talking about real friendship. I'm talking about what I feel, what some people feel for me. I'm talking about the feeling make me go on every morning. I'm talking about what lot of people don't know what is.

~Triss 

Tired

Today is gonna not to care what they say about me. Today I'm gonna act without thinking before, without think about the expectancies they have put on me without my permission. I'm gonna do what I really want. without thinking about consequences. Because I've already realized it doesn't worth worrying about. That talk, all people are going to talk, I do what I do. There will always be something about someone will be in disagree. And of course, they're going to talk. They will say thousand and one stories, they will tell three thousand lies, y perhaps one true. 

I will never be good for everyone, my attitude will always be bad for someone.  lguna verdad.

And today, it doesn't matter at all, I am satisfied to be good for me. Because I'm tired of being what they want me to be, of thinking what is correct to think and of strangling my feelings for not to hurt anyone. But of course, it doesn't matter if other people hurt me. 

Today I'm gonna be me, I'm gonna think only about me, and I'm gonna tell you what I feel inside. No matter what and who bother. 

Today, there aren't tears which worth, or mysteries to looking for.

And I'm not getting around it, because that's always to be cross, and we both know it. Today, I'm tired you to behave so. 

~Triss

A brother may don't be a friend, but a friend, will always be a brother

They say you can't choose your family. They say you accept which fate chooses for you and, you like it or not, you love it or not, you understand it or not, you accept it for the rest of you life. 

But I don't agree with this. Family where you born is only a start point. Are who, better or worse, lead you in your first steps, in your first words and in your first experiences. But then, you grow up, learn things and then you are who have to choose.

And I don't think family to be only them whom bleed you share. No, nothing of that. Family are all of them who make you improve everyday. They with whom you share laughs, tears, dreams and disappoints.  Are all the people who are always there, and always forgive, for much that you hurt. The real family is that you're able to choose, the ones who make you see they deserve it. Family are all the people that never feel disappointed, because there isn't any expectation. Those who support you in each of your ideas, for quirky and crazy they become. The ones that, for you, make bleed if it is necessary. Those who give you one, no, thousand and one reasons to smile every morning, and make every bad moment become in something that worth be remembered forever. 

Yeah, I'm talking about my friends. Those for whom don't care if it's five in the afternoon or three in the morning, because are there, for everything you need. They are who don't fail you, who make you smile in any moment. Those who let you fail, but are always there to take the pieces of me when I fall, that is almost all times. They, they are who make me go on everyday. 

~Triss